Wow it's been so long since i made a post on my blog i almost forgot i had started it or maybe i was trying to forget i started it you see i enjoy posting good news not the i am sitting on my ass not doing anything news so there has really not been much to wright about.
As wonderful as i was feeling in the end of 2010 and start of 2011 i have almost givin up on myself and for no reason other then that is what i am use to doing for the last 35 years not pushing myself throw the hard times to get what i really deserve happiness and Health.
Yesterday i was asked if i noticed a bounce when i walked the emotion i had was instand sadness because i don't but i did. I remeber the feeling of being proud of myself happy i was finaly doing something with my life making great changes. In the last few months i treaded that wonderful feeling for nothing other then pain , sickness, and regreat.
I have not had that wonderful bounce to my walk because i have not been taking care of myself i have coasted along on peoples comments of how great i look with all the weight i have lost but the truth is i have gained.
I had lost 60 pounds but have put ten back on and that 10 pounds just ten has made my hands and feet puffy and uncomforable, my beathing harder, my moods get back on the rollercoaster i have spent my life on. my movements slower my sleep less. my happiness gone once again.
I have slipped back into my old traps and mind set but i don't have to stay here i have the right to say no more i want that better happer me and get off my butt and once again see for myself the life you gain throw eating clean and taking care of your self.
Hi Patricia! I'm happy you're back on the happy horse again. And thanks for your lovely comment!
ReplyDeleteKeep strong Trisha~!! You know how good it feels being clean and doing what you like. You know how bad it feels not. So try to get back into the swing of things. You can do this, you have done this!! Keep strong! Hugs!
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